Monday, November 1, 2010

Re-turn

2008 and 2009 were mind-blowingly horrendous years. I'm not exactly sure what happened during the course of those 700 odd days. It definitely felt like I've been asleep for most of them. Just like spring, things began to blossom in 2010. Was it because of the new people I've met, or a replacement of headspace? I don't know. One thing I do know is that God has been working in my life, yet again, in his mysterious and gracious ways.

Anyways, I just wanted to say 'hi'! I'm back, in full steam and ready to crank this baby up! I'm not sure what this "baby" is exactly as of yet, but it sure is going to be cranked up.

If I've learnt anything in the past three years, it's that life is short and I've wasted too many seconds trying to change things that I have no control over. Boys, parents, siblings, friends, the weather, emotions, tears, laughter - they all come and go as they like, without so much as a wince at my childish demands. Even the mail-man decides whether or not he feels like delivering my mail in the morning. I have completely, and utterly no say in what people choose to do.

Then I realised... I. Can't. Change. Anything. Period.

It's all in God's hands- my time is in God's hands- and I've just got to hand it all to Him. Afterall, try beating the Creator of the universe at making better choices than Him. It was just a little naive of me.